They say that when someone shows you who they are, believe them. Despite the ongoing drama with the wife, for some reason, I’ve had difficulty in accepting that this is how/who she really is. From an outside view, I’m sure that people already know this about her.

I used to ask my mother why she was surprised or even upset when my dad did some bullshit…..I remember distinctly telling her “whey are you surprised, you know how he is.” Now I kind of get it. Despite no longer being totally surprised at pretty much anything she does, including voluntarily lying, gaslighting, cheating, and so forth……for some reason, deep down, I still think that there is some good in her. Really deep down though.

It’s like how I can see certain bad people that I’m not so close to. I realize that this isn’t a person I should trust and there really is no point in talking to them about their terrible decisions/actions. I have a co-worker who seems to be open to cheating on her boyfriend with another co-worker, and despite thinking that it sucks for the boyfriend, I’m not too bothered by it. I just take a mental note and keep it moving. Perhaps other people see the wife this way, but becuase her actions doesn’t affect them directly, they aren’t as hurt nor bothered by her.

I was the fool who married her. I can’t wait until we get this divorce. I’m am hoping that once this is over, the humiliation of being “her husband” will be over with.